The day I lost my self love

I'm on a highway full of red lights
I've lost so many long nights
Felt words that cut like knives
I know, I know they're gonna
Say what they wanna
I know they're gonna
Say what they want (want want)

-Broken glass, Rachel Platten.

Is'nt it amazing how one moment can ruin your whole self esteem. Its crazy.

 People can be mean to each other but no voices are as mean as our voices to ourselves -TS 

and seriously I was really mean to myself tonight.  

ugh. I hate feeling this way. Some days my self love and confidence can go to fuck everybody im beautiful and some days it just went to you ugly fat piece of shit no wonder nobody likes you. Its crazy!! I never felt so hatred towards myself when I looked in the mirror except for tonight. I just felt ugly. Like a piece of shit who will never be good enough. I feel bad for myself for not trying my best to change. I needed a reason. I know if I kept waiting for the reason ill never be able to change. I know this wait should end. I guess its okay to be mad and to feel worthless sometimes. As long as you get back up and forgive yourself tomorrow. I hope tomorrow I am much more kind than today.

I am sorry dear self for making you feel like crap. Today is just a sad day.